H-25 : If I Knew Then What I Know Now

Daisypath berkata 3 minggu dan 3 hari lagi menjelang hari saya diperistri. What is that word? Diperistri? Dijadikan istri? As if menjadi istri adalah cita-cita. Kenapa nggak ada dipersuami? Ah gender bias, how I dislike thee.

Semantics aside, mari kita reka ulang kalimat tersebut menjadi : 3 minggu dan 3 hari lagi menjelang hari saya memiliki seorang partner hidup.

Oh wow.

Drama sudah semakin tak terhitung.

Kebaya akad & resepsi gagal 1 bulan menuju hari H? Been there.

Pusing seputar pengaturan panitia keluarga? Done that.

Kena slepet di rapat keluarga? Oh chenchuuu.



I am so much more excited about the marriage than the wedding. Yeah I know I’ve said that. I don’t know why I said it like it’s a bad thing. It’s a good thing. It’s a reminder of what truly matters. 

Then I came across this post by Edward Suhadi 

and now I am slowly letting go. Of all the things that are beyond my control. All the things that didn’t go the way I expected it to be. All my concept and color schemes slowly falling down into the abyss of “ya udahlah ini juga bagus kok”. 

I am learning not to care, as the only thing to care about is that I am getting married. I am gaining a life partner, whom I chose, and chose me as well. To begin the rest of our lives together. 

And I love him more for the fact that he still has enough patience to remind me : 

“You can choose to sulk and have a crappy time, or we can laugh about it together and have a great time.”

I wish I remembered that since day one, instead of letting pressure from other people *hello parents* take over me.