ugh…today would be one of those days where I would sigh and grunt every several minutes or so.
sometimes, the tolls of life can burden itself on your shoulders as such that all you ever see is that thing sitting upon your shoulders. and you overlook the fact that your toll is chickenshit compared to other people’s problems. and you overlook the fact that beside you is a hand, helping you carry that weight… and you sigh, you grunt, you cast a curse on the world for the wretched life that you lead. and you forgot.
you forgot about the hand. you forgot that you’re in reality not alone, not so burdened, and not leading a wretched life at all.
sometimes I lose that objectivity in looking on my life and each moment, each event happening in it. sometimes I think that I am the only person that matters on earth. call me egoistical, call me selfish, call me histrionic. to me, my problem is that I am continually overlooking the obvious. call it defensive, call it denial. call it what ever you want. I don’t know what you’re talking about.